Sketchbook # 10 was made one - three days post-surgery.
5 + 6 + 7 May 09.
Institut Marie Curie, from my bed.
text: I need to remember.
THE WORST IS BEHIND NOW.
I need to remember this.
text : That the worst is behindTHE WORST IS BEHIND NOW.
I need to remember this.
is not yet,
a believable concept. NOTHING IS BELIEVABLE all that is believable is that well - each day remains believable enough to go on
SURGERY PUTS YOU IN AN ODD STATE or maybe the morphine + pain management does
But right now the only thing I believe is my belly got cut open + utereus + ovaries + lymph nodes extracted.
text : drawing on post-operation pain management
text : why do I bother drawing?
reckon I'll go to sleep now
feeling a bit drug fucked.
NO PAIN - only when I move
reckon I'll go to sleep now
feeling a bit drug fucked.
NO PAIN - only when I move
text : is it really over?
I have difficulty to feel it could be
my gut has been open
+ it's hard to stand
I have difficulty to feel it could be
my gut has been open
+ it's hard to stand
text : I feel too sore, too crap to even think that the worst is over. Firstly there are 2 more weeks of tests to wait for
then there is recovery
recuperation
I guess
the major worst is over but I'm still taking a day at a TIME BABY
text : LIVING A DAY AT A TIME
THIS IS ALL I CAN DO
text : day 2 after surgery
- i can pee (gratitude)
- I can walk (very slowly)
(gratitude)
food: day of surgery NIL (mon)
(tues)1. NIL (day after)
Wed 2. yoghurt + apple puree
Thurs 3. macaroni
Thursday 3 after surger:
I thought I was going to have a melt down when I saw the macaroni. WHAT?????
my first meal since Sunday + it's ****ing macaroni?
THIS IS ALL I CAN DO
text : day 2 after surgery
- i can pee (gratitude)
- I can walk (very slowly)
(gratitude)
food: day of surgery NIL (mon)
(tues)1. NIL (day after)
Wed 2. yoghurt + apple puree
Thurs 3. macaroni
Thursday 3 after surger:
I thought I was going to have a melt down when I saw the macaroni. WHAT?????
my first meal since Sunday + it's ****ing macaroni?
text : I am so drugged up on pain-killers,
I don't really care for much right now.
I don't really care for much right now.
text: THERE IS NOTHING QUITE LIKE INTIMATELY MEETING
ONE'S OWN MORTALITY
ONE'S OWN MORTALITY
1 comment:
Good morning Nathalie
It's a big experience to go through, and you just have to do what you are doing - have patience with yourself, take good care, live fully every moment - and you will come through the other side strong and happy.
Kim
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